Snuggles and Tears Chapter 52

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Chapter 52

Becky ran to the bathroom and quickly closed the door. She didn’t want to see her aunt before she got a shower.

Sharon gathered everything together and went to the nursery. Quietly she put the messy diaper in the Diaper Genie and then, after having wiped the changing pad down, put everything else back where it belonged. She saw Billy was still sleeping so headed toward the kitchen. She wanted a quick word with Rick before she returned to the livingroom.

Rick was sitting at the table still, and Sharon quickly explained what happened. She asked him to talk to her to make sure she was alright. “I feel terrible, I didn’t mean for this to happen.” Sharon said.

“I think she’ll be fine Hon. It wasn’t pleasant I’m sure, but it’s not like she got deathly ill or broke a bone or anything like that. She hopefully learned something from this, but I honestly think she’ll be fine.” Rick reassured her.

“Can you please speak with her when she gets out of the shower?” Sharon pleaded.

“Sure Hon.” Rick said. He got up then and picked up his coffee cup. “I’ll go to our room and wait.” he explained.

“Thank you.” Sharon told him as she kissed him and headed toward the livingroom.

“Everything alright?” Rachael asked with a concerned look as Sharon made her way to the couch.

“That obvious huh?” Sharon asked.

“Yes, what happened Shar?”.

“Promise you’ll keep this to yourself?” Sharon pleaded.

“Absolutely.” Rachael responded.

Looking to Bobby, Sharon said “Well, you know who I went to check on, she had a bit of a problem.”. She then went on to explain what happened without naming names. God forbid Bobby would say anything to Becky.

When Sharon finished explaining Rachael said “Poor girl, that really had to suck.” Rachael said with a chuckle.

“Yes, I feel awful for having caused it.” Sharon explained.

Rachael looked at her and said “Shar, you didn’t cause it, she was curious. It was her curiosity that eventually put her in that position. It’s not like you purposefully made her sit and mess her diaper.”.

“True, but I forgot I needed to check on her. That’s why it happened.” Sharon answered.

“I tell you what, you find me a perfect parent and I’ll be the first one to bow down before them and offer praise. Until then, let it go.” Rachael said with a chuckle. “We all make mistakes. What separates us from bad parents is, we limit them to mistakes we can either fix or that don’t have lasting consequences. The only consequences I see from this are that she definitely knows she doesn’t want to be in her brother’s position, and that she will know what he feels like when he needs a change. This won’t be a bad thing, it will make her a more attentive sister.” she added.

“You’re probably right. I’m just really at a loss with some of this. It’s not something that Mom warned us about.” Sharon said with a laugh.

“I have to agree with that. But I really want you to know that I think you’ll do fine Sis. In fact, I can honestly say that you’ve done a lot better than I would have, I wouldn’t even have had the slightest idea how to handle this.” Rachael encouraged her.

“Thanks Rach, that means a lot to me.” Sharon replied.


Rick sat on his bed, reading a book. When he heard the door open to the bathroom, he called Becky’s name.

Becky feeling a lot better after the shower, heard her daddy and walked to the doorway. When she saw him, he held his arms out to her. She went to him and he pulled her up into his lap, hugging her.

“You OK Pumpkin?” he asked her with concern on his face.

“Mom told you?” Becky asked with a red face.

“Yes, she wanted me to make sure you were alright. She was worried about you Honey. She feels terrible that things happened the way they did.” He answered.

Becky looked closer at her daddy, looking to see if he was upset with her for having had an accident like that. When she saw he was just worried about her, she hugged him close and said “I’m OK Daddy.”.

“I’m glad.” he told her. “I understand what it is to be curious, and there’s nothing wrong with wondering what it’s like for Billy. I’m not upset that you tried one of his diapers on or that you ended up messing a diaper by accident Honey.” he added.

She held him a bit tighter when she heard that. She had been worried he would be upset. “I don’t understand.” She said.

“What don’t you understand Pumpkin?” he asked.

“I don’t understand why he’s so attached to his binky. When I put one in my mouth and sucked on it, it felt weird, not comforting at all.” she told her daddy.

Rick was glad she could talk about this without feeling ashamed at this point. “Well Pumpkin, babies are different than we are. Look at me.” he told her.

Becky pulled back from his chest and looked up at Rick.

“Can you feel this?” Rick asked as he really gently ran his finger up her back.

Becky laughed and said “Yes, it tickles.”.

“Now, can you feel this?” he asked as he did the same thing, but harder, making her giggle.

“Yes!” she said laughing harder.

“OK. A baby’s mouth is a lot more sensitive to touch and taste than yours and mine. What you felt the first time I tickled you, is like what we feel in our mouths. The second time is what the same thing would feel like to Billy.” he explained. “This is why Billy loves to have his baby keys in his mouth, they stimulate his tongue with different textures.” he added.

“Oh.” Becky said. “Is it like that all over for him?” she asked.

“No. His body doesn’t feel things the same way yours and mine would. This is because of the surgery. His nerves need to heal, and when they do, he’ll feel the same way we do. For right now though, he pretty much feels things like a baby does, a lot of his sensations are muted.” Rick told her.

“That explains why I couldn’t stand to be in a messy diaper and it doesn’t bother him right now.” she said.

“That’s right, but there’s more to it. Not only does he not feel the mess on his bottom the same, his sense of smell is a lot more sensitive. To us, his messy diaper smells awful, but to him, it stimulates his senses and that is pleasant to him.” Rick clarified.

“Oh. Now I understand.” she said. “But why do some babies cry when they’re messy then.”

“Because every baby is different and their nerves grow and mature at different rates. Also, if a baby has diaper rash, then being messy will burn their bottom and make them cry. This is why it’s so important to get them completely clean when you change their diapers.” he instructed. “When you were oh…about a year old, you couldn’t stand being messy. Billy on the other hand was two and a half before he reached that point.”

“That makes sense.” Becky said with a smile.

“Anything else you’re curious about?” Rick asked.

“How long will he be like he is now?” Becky responded.

Rick thought about this for a moment. “I don’t know Honey, there’s no way to know. Right now he’s at about a two month old level. It might be that a month from now he’ll be at a six month old level, and it might take four months for him to reach that point. There’s no way to predict how long this will take.” he explained.

“So we just have to wait and see.” Becky said.

“Yes, and just respond to Billy like we would anyone that behaves the way he does.” Rick added.

“Treat him like a little baby, you mean.” She clarified.

“Yes, that’s exactly what I mean.” Rick told her.

Rick hugged her close for a moment and after giving her a kiss on the cheek and said “Why don’t you go find your mom and let her know that you’re not upset with her. She’s feeling really bad about what happened.”.

“OK Daddy, I love you.” she said as she returned his kiss.

“I love you to Sweety.” he replied as she got down and walked down the hall.

Becky made her way toward the livingroom. As she got to Billy’s door she heard him making baby sounds. She peeked in through the slightly open door and saw he was talking to his Pooh Bear. This made her smile. “He sounds just like a little baby.” she thought. Moving into his room quietly, she made her way slowly to his crib.

Billy noticed movement to his left and looked over to find his sister smiling at him. He couldn’t help but giggle when he saw her.

“Hi Bug-a-boo.” she told him. “You talking to Pooh Bear?” she asked sweetly.

Billy tried to tell her “Yeah Becky, I was just playing with him.” and he noticed her eyes get big and tears form. This scared him.

Becky was shocked. He’d actually said her name! It wasn’t clear as a bell but it was understandable. When she saw that he was about to cry she said “No Baby, it’s OK.” bending to give him a gentle hug and a kiss on his forehead. When she stood back up, she felt her mom’s hand on her back.

“Mommy!” Billy said with a big smile.

Sharon’s heart swelled at hearing her name from his mouth. She didn’t think she had ever heard anything so wonderful in her whole life. Reaching to pick him up, she cuddled him close, holding his bottom. Pulling back from him so she could see his face, she said “Baby, can you say that again?” in a sweet voice, tears running down her cheeks.

Billy didn’t understand what Mommy and Becky were upset about, but they were crying. He was scared because he didn’t know what was wrong. He heard Mommy ask him to repeat himself, so, on the verge of tears he said “Mommy.” in a scared little voice.

Sharon pulled him close again and said softly into his ear “It feels so good to hear you say my name Baby.”.

Billy hadn’t understood until then that he actually said ‘Mommy’. He giggled then, he felt overjoyed that she could understand it. “Mommy!” he said again between giggles.

Rick was standing in the doorway, blinking back tears as he heard his little boy call his mommy’s name.

Billy lifted his head and turned to look at his sister and said “Bec-Ky” and giggled again. It was harder to make those sounds clearly, but they came out.

Becky leaned over and kissed his cheek and said “I love you Bug-a-boo.” in a thick voice.

Billy smiled. It made him so happy to be able to say the names of the people that meant so much to him. He turned again looking toward the door and saw Daddy standing there watching. Billy held up his arms and said “Daddy!” giggling with glee.

Rick heard that and couldn’t keep his tears in check any longer. Seeing Billy raise his arms up, Rick went to him.

Sharon handed her baby boy to Rick and smiled as Rick pulled him close and said “That’s right Baby, Daddy’s here.”

Rick held him close rocking him back and forth for a moment before realizing that Billy was hugging him back. It then occurred to him the Billy’s arms were wrapped tightly around his neck. It was then that he noticed that Billy’s legs were helping to hold him in place. After a moment, Rick let go of Billy’s back, moving that hand and arm away from him, so the only support he was giving Billy was his left hand on Billy’s diapered bottom. “Look at you,” Rick said. “you’re holding on. I’m so proud of you little boy.” he added as he kissed Billy’s cheek.


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I didn’t except this to happen yet. BB keep it up.

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Awww! way to get me all misty-eyed unexpectedly. :stuck_out_tongue:

Awesome job.

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Just when I think you can’t catch me off-guard emotionally, you pull this on me. Damn you for making me choke up again! Keep up the good work!

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Thanks you three!

I enjoyed writing this one.

I have to admit, I am pushing the time frame a little bit, but there’s a reason for it.

I’m glad you liked this. :smiley:


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Nice one BB, but the advance of Billy to this level, at this time was abit of a shock!! I just hope you are not nearing the end, BB!!

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It is great to see the progress that billy is making, though there is still a long way to go.

I think that BB values his butt too much to end the story quickly.

Who knows what damage enraged readers may cause him.

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You are right, BB is too smart to end this any time soon. I think when he does end it, it will still be too soon!

The leap that Billy made sounds right, I didn’t think it would be the same time line as a baby would have. Some things will come faster then others and some Billy will slow down himself, ones that he likes. Remember he wanted to be a baby so he will not push himself to be a 9 yearold too fast.

Keep up the great work BB!
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Rest assured, Billy still has a long way to go. Every time I think I’ve gotten to the halfway point, another opportunity presents itself to illustrate a new aspect of his journey. I honestly think we’re at the halfway point now though.

This is a very perceptive observation.:smiley:

I do want to ask a question though.

When you consider that Billy’s entire existence since leaving the hospital has been that of an infant (nursing, sleeping, and very little time awake), wouldn’t you say it’s been very easy for him to enjoy this time?

After all, there’s limited time to get bored and everything is new and exciting to him. How long before the limits of his coordination and his infantile instincts start to frustrate him?

Alot of AB’s fantasize about how wonderful it would be to be a little baby. Having been there, more than once in my life, I can tell you honestly, it’s not as enjoyable as it may seem. There are the same frustrations, as well as wonderful times, we see in adulthood.

Now, when you talk about Toddlerhood, that’s a different story altogether! :wink:


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BB Billy does act like a baby most of the time but there is a 9 years old there too. Like if you have a stroke some gets better in some areas faster then others areas, ie feeding your self vs walking. Since you said this is base on real life. You still have a long way to go BB!