Re: Pot. Help!
I’ve had a lot of similar experiences. The last time I smoked, I felt like I could feel my insides. My heart raced wildly. My mouth went completely dry. I felt this awful sensation around my inner upper lip and could sometimes feel like my veins were pulsing and throbbing. I don’t know how to describe it except to say that I was completely unable to handle the experience. Trembling, overwhelming paranoia, extreme self-consciousness.
This is actually a fairly common problem with people who smoke, stop for a long time, and then pick it back up. A lot of my older friends, especially friends who have had children and just haven’t had the time to smoke pot, have told me that they picked it up a few years later and just had negative experiences, and many of my friends who still smoke have said the same thing.
One thing to keep in mind is that marijuana is a mild hallucinogenic, and everyone’s body chemistry is different. Many people just feel mellow and hungry when they smoke, but I’ve noticed that I’m extremely susceptible to the hallucinogenic side effects. I’ve found that I get really bad somatic hallucinations, so I just stopped altogether.
Ironically, while I have occasionally dealt with bouts of terrible anxiety, I have also noticed that if I was able to come to grips with my thoughts and move past some of my fears, I would later find the experience highly rewarding. For example, the fear that I would be randomly drug tested (even though my job doesn’t drug test civilians) used to come on really hard, and at some point I came to realize that I was clutching so hard to this job that it was like it was a part of my identity. Before my experience could get better, I had to acknowledge that even if I lost my job, my life would go on, and once I realized this, I felt incredibly liberated.
I also can’t help but wonder if some of the psychosomatic hallucinations I’ve experienced aren’t my body’s way of telling me that there are some health issues I need to address. My wisdom teeth are impacted, and sometimes when I smoke I could swear I could feel my teeth growing (even though I know that would be impossible.) Still, I should probably get them pulled, no? Another issue that I have is my weight; the feelings of throbbing veins and congestion around my chest might be warning signs that I need to seriously consider a regimen of diet and exercise, and I have since made serious attempts to change the way I eat and the degree of my activity. Baby steps.
As for whether or not your drug was “dosed” with anything…I couldn’t say. Dolphins is probably right. It might have just been some fire shit and your body might have just been unused to it. These days there are also a lot of different lab chemicals that people use during the growing process that might have just triggered an adverse reaction. It’s entirely possible to experience hallucinations from marijuana, so I wouldn’t necessarily jump to any conclusions.
Just be careful. Always know your dealer. Always make sure you’re in a safe place, with people who genuinely care about your well being. Never get behind the wheel while you’re inebriated. And remember that marijuana is not for everyone. You seem like you’re intelligent enough to know these things, but I felt like it couldn’t hurt to reiterate them.
Anyway, best regards. I hope this was helpful.