I thought I would do something a little different. A Journal entry format. You won’t get a name, color of hair, height, gender etc, because people don’t put that stuff in journals (at least, no one I knows does that). In this story you are reading from my character’s journal. It is one of my first works, and will hopefully become my first completed story. This first part is a little short, but I want to go for a daily entry sort of thing. Hopefully the entries will get longer as time goes on and I get better. I hope you all enjoy, and give feedback. I need all the constructive criticism that I can get.
Monday, December 7, 2015
It has been long enough. Actually it has been too long at this point. The last time I wrote an entry was… I’m going to look it up. Ah, yes it was four months ago on September 13th right after I started my first year of college and bought my first laptop. So much has happened since then. My hair is now slightly longer than my shoulders, but it still need to grow more if I want to give it to Locks of Love. My goals are pretty much the same, but a few parts have changed, so I’ll just go over the whole plan again.
First I am going to take care of my core classes here at the community college. That will be done by the end of spring semester next year. Next I move to Idaho. Then comes the fork in the road. If Plan A works I will be eligible to go on a two year mission for my church. If it doesn’t ,Plan B, move in with grandparents and take the bus to BSU. There I will major in electrical engineering and minor in Japanese Studies. In any case, after Plan A is Plan B anyway, and If I have to do plan B I can come back to plan A next year. After all that I will apply for a Monbukagakusho Scholarship and study in Japan. Then get a career as either an energy engineer specializing in renewable energy, or an interpreter/translator. Once that is done, or somewhere along the line, I will get married, run a foster home, adopt the ones who will never find a good home, and maybe have a few kids of my own.
That’s pretty much the whole plan. Now to catch up on the more recent events. It is 1 AM right now, my first final is this Tuesday and they end this Friday. Grades look like they will average at a 3.0. It’s ok, but we both know that it’s not the best I can do. Next semester I want to pull it up to a 3.5, which means that I can only get one B. It should all work out. This semester I am taking World Religions, Intro to Chemistry+Lab, Intro to computer Concepts, and Career Exploration. Next semester I will take Calculus with Analytical Geometry, General Psychology, General Chemistry+Lab, and Intro to Computer Programming.
Now that School is out of the way, we need to talk about the real issues. The last two weeks went well, but yesterday… yesterday you failed. It is time to stop. You know you can’t go on a mission with this problem. I know why you do it, but it must stop. Look, we have been doing this for many years, and we know why we must stop. First of all, without this problem… no let’s call it what it is, without this addiction, our productivity increases. We can focus on the things we need to, like school, language study, learning about renewable energy, and reading all those books. Second… well… never mind, we both know that it’s not right, that should be enough.
Still… .No, I shouldn’t think like that. I know it’s wrong. I stop today. Okay, from last week it took three days without scripture reading to get to the point where I… when it happened. As long as I read my scriptures every day I should be fine. The temptations will be there, but I will be able to resist them. …should I get rid of … no, once I quit I won’t need them. Until then keeping all my stuff will help me get stronger. If I don’t use them when they are right in front of me, I will be much better off then if they were inaccessible, gone, thrown away, you get the point.
Anyway, as of today I am ABDL no more.