[b]Ok this is ruffly basted on a rp i did the start is basically the same but it will change further on. Hope you like it
Kirst[b]
I have missed you mummy
I was getting off my plan ride, with only a small suitcase filed with my dark clothing and some personal stuff. My name is Kirstie I’m 13 years old and for the last 11 years i have lived with my drunken dead beet father in a small flat in Scotland. I have long brown hair, blue eyes, I have a normal body, which is odd considering until i was 8 i barley ate and oh yeah I’m goth right now i am waring some black skinny jeans and a big hoddie. The reason i just arrived in some small town some place in America is because my dad just died and the police have helped me track down my mum, who i was tacked from at age 2.
As i get off the plan and walk to the point ware i was meant to meet her i start to get nervous. I mean what if she doesn’t like me? Or what if she’s like dad?! I mean normally i don’t give a shit what people think of me but it would be nice to live with someone that at least doesn’t want me dead for a change.
“Kirstie?” A woman who i swear is me in about 20 so years. She had the same hair and eyes as me and was a little bit taller “Kirstie baby is that you?” she asked looking like she was going to cry.
“yeah it’s me you must be Ella.” I said trying to sound clam. I didn’t know if she would want me calling her mum or not.Then out of no ware she took me in the biggest hug i had ever been in, which to tell you the truth i liked but i have never been good with hugs so I tensed, which made her loosen her grip and look me in the eyes. I think she was wondering why i tensed.
“Oh baby you are so grown up.” she said putting her hand on my cheek.
“Yeah that’s puberty for you.” I laughed as i all ways do when I’m nervous and she smiled.
“Ok lets get your stuff then we can head home you must be tiered.Oh and call me mum.” she smiled.
“Em ok but i got my stuff here.” i said holding up my bag and she found looking worried.
“Sweetie is that all your stuff?”
“Em yeah.” I surged.
“Well first thing we need to do after you get some rest is take you shopping it can be the first of many mother daughter days.” she said and i smiled wildly. I had never exspedced her to be this nice I would have been happy if she just paid for my food.
She picked up my bag and walked with me to a cute little mine and put my bag in the trunk then opened the pasnger seat door for me.
“Thanks” i said a little shyly and she smiled and got in to.
"So what have you been doing all this time i hope your father was treating you correctly? " She said as she drove.
“Em nothing really.” I said not really wanting to talk about what i have been doing.
“Come on hun it has been 11 years i want to know every thing.” she said.
“Really there is nothing to tell.” I said.
“Come on please tell me I have missed you baby and I have worried what your father has been doing with you.” she said and I shivered not wanting to think of what my father did to me. I think she noticed because as we arrived she did not unlock the doors and just turned to me.
“Tell me what he did?” she said.
“It’s nothing really.” I said really not wanting to think about it.
“Come on hun you look fine to me but i can tell that your lying, at least it look like he fed you.” she said and i shook my head.
“Em actually i got my own food.”
“What how did you afored that?”
“I have been working since i was 8” I said and she frowned.
“Hun what sort of place would let a 8 year old work?” she said taking my hand.
“Em the bar dad goes to.” I said kida lying. It was more of a strip joint than a bar but i just served food and cleaned and basicaly run the place by the time i was 10 it was crap. I think mum knew what kida bar dad goes to as her grip tinted on my hand.
“Please tell me they never never….touched you?” she sad and I looked down.
“Did did they take your your ver….innocents?” she asked like i didn’t know what she would mean and I nodded and she slammed her fist into the car and I jumped.
“I I I’m sorry.” I sutured and she looked at me with tears in her eyes.
“No sweetie don’t be sorry it wasn’t your fault it’s mine i should have looked for you harder.” she said hugging me and i tried not to cry.
“No mum it’s not your fault.” i said and she kissed the top of my head.
“Come on baby lets get inside.” she said and we both got out the car and she got my stuff. “Here we are.” she said and opened the front door and i entered the most homely place ever. I yawned and she smiled.
“Come on hun it late pasted your bed time.” she said and walked me up the stairs. I hope she joking.
“Mum I’m fine really.” i said i didn’t want to go to sleep and have another nightmare and it was only 10.30pm.
“Kirstie you look exsasted and it’s half and hour after bed time.” she said.
“Wait you want me to go to bed at 10.30?” I asked. I can’t remember if i had ever went to bed that early.
“Baby it is 10.30 or i make you take a nap after lunch.” she said.
“But I’m 13.” I said.
“Yes and that is why you need your sleep you are a growing girl.” she said.“Now off to bed little Missy.” she giggled and I huffed and pulled my hoodie so i was in my strapy top. I looked up at her i didn’t want to get dressed with her watching.
“Want a hand sweetie?” she asked.
“Em no can you turn around?” I said and she giggled.
“Baby i changed your diapers i have seen it all before.” she said.
“Yeah but it’s difrent now.” I said blushing and she turned around.
“Fine but speaking of diapers how did your dad do with potty training you he must of got sick of changing you?” she asked and I blushed. The truth was I trained myself when I was 7 as i was getting bulied at school, i still am but for difrent reasons.
“I trained myself mum can we change the subject this is embarrassing.” i blushed and got my pj bottoms that were way too big for me on.
“Ok hunny just asking.” she said and turned around.
“Your still really small.” she giggled and pulled up my bottoms that were falling as i blushed.
“I’m normal sized.” I mumbled and she ruffled my hair.
“I was only teasing baby now get to sleep.” She said and lay me down and tucked me in with a kiss on the fore head, which made me blush even though i loved how caring she was. “night night kirstie love you.” she said and lifted but left the door opened a little. Once she was gone I went in my bag and garbed my stuffed kitty that was given to me when i was born. I still can’t sleep with out it. I fell asleep sucking my thumb as all ways, which is really embarrassing.
The next thing I knew I woke up with a scream. I had had the same night mare of the time when i was raped . I have been having them since i was 9. Mum came running in.
“What what is it Kirstie are you ok?” she said taking me in her arms and holding me like a baby and i tried to stop crying.
“I I I’m sorry it was just a n n nightmare.” I sobbed into her chest and she rubbed my back.
“shh shh baby was this about what happened with your dad?” she asked and i nodded “Oh shh shh It’s ok mummys got you your ok no one is ever going to hurt you shh.” she said rocking me back and and front as i calmed down. “Do you want to sleep with me?” she asked and i shock my head i did really want to but i felt like enough of a baby as it was. “Ok sweetie try and get sme more sleep.” she said laying me back down and leaving still looking worried. I didn’t sleep for the rest of the night i just cried like i did every time i had a nightmare.
At about 9am i got out of bed and went down stairs. I didn’t notice that i was still holding my kitty. I came down and sat down on the sofa the opasit end from mum. She moved closer to me and put her arms around me and kissed my cheek.
“You ok baby?” she asked and i nodded. I really wanted to cuddled into her but i was too embarrassed. She giggled and I looked up at her.
“What’s so funny?” I said.
“You still have your bed time buddy.” she said and picked up my kitty and i blushed. “Hunny don’t be embarrassed it’s cute.” she said and tickled me under my chin, wich makes me giggle and she awws “You still giggle like you did when you were a baby.” i blushed more “What do you want to eat?” she asked and i surged
“coffee.” I said and she sock her head.
“Hun that stuff is bad for you and you drink that i said eat.” she said
“I dont normaly eat this early.”
“Baby you need your 3 meals a day.”
“Ok fine can i have some toast?” i asked and she nodded.
5 minutes later mum called me in and at the table was a glass of milk some cereal and some toast.
“eat up hun.” she said and i nodded. I ate quietly then when i went to take a sip of my milk as all ways like the klutz’s i am split it all over my shelf.
“Shit I’m sorry.” i said jumping up.
“Kirstie don’t use bad such horrible words.” she scolded.
“Sorry.” i said looking down.
“It’s ok just don’t do it again or you will be in trouble now why don’t you get cleaned up.” she said “the shower is next to the room you were sleeping in.” she said and i went up stairs.
20 minuets later i come down stairs in my black jeans and my t shirt that said dead and loving it with a zombie bunny on it. When mum sees what I’m warring she frowns.
“You ready to go?” she asked and i nod as we go out to the car, “Why don’t we get stuff for your old room first i haven’t decorated in there since you left” she said then went off in her own thoughts.
We arrived at the DIY store and she got a cart.
“Ok what colour do you want your room to be?” she asked
“Red and black.” i say with out a thought
“you sure hun that’s a little dark dont you think. i don’t think a dark room will help with your nightmares.” she said
“mum i like the dark im not scared of it.” i said and she nodded looking difeted. I picked up a 2 pots of black and 2 of read and put them in the cart. We walked around for a wile and picked up some black shutters i think mum thinks i’m a vampire now.
We left the store and went to the mall and mum took my hand as we walked.
"what are you doing?"i asked
“its a busy mall i dont want you getting lost.” she said and kissed my forehead and i blushed. We walked around looking in lots of stores that i wasn’t into then we weant to a goth one and i smiled as mum just gave me some money and said go nuts.
“dinners ready” mum called. It was now around 8 and mum was making pizza for us. When i walked through i noticed at at my seat insted of a glass there was a little kids sippy cup.
“What’s this for?” i asked picking it up.
“It’s so you dont have to worry about spilling it” mum said like this was normal
“but mum I’m 13.” i wined
“kirstie don’t worry about it i just want you to worry about as little as posibel you seem stressed.” she said
“fine” i said and sat down blushing. I ate my pizza and drank from the sippy cup them mum giggled.
“laughing at me wont make me relax” i glared.
“no baby you just got a little food on your nose.” she said and liked a napkin and wiped my face. Then my phone rang in my pocket.
“hello” i said
“hi kirstie it’s mike i just wanted to see how you are doing me and Emily have missed you.” he said. Mike and Emily are my to best and only friends and i may also have a little crush on Mike well more a big crush.
“Oh hay I have missed you to i can’t sneak into moves with out you.My life will be so fucking boring now” i smiled.
“yeah i know well bye i will talk to you soon i just wanted to make sure you were ok.” he said
“ok bye” i said and hung up and noticed mum was looking at me.
“what did i say about bad words?” she said
“Oh sorry bad habit.” i said
“and what was it you said about sneaking into movies?” she said
“em me and um Mike may have sneaked into 18 movies.” i said blushing at his name.
“well you wont be doing that when i am here.” mum said and noticed my blush and smirked.
“So who’s Mike?” She asked
“Em he just my friend”
“Oh really then why did you blush when you said his name?” she asked and i blushed more and looked a away.
“Awww my little girl has a crush.” she giggled and kissed my cheek." Don’t be so embarrassed to talk to me hun." she said and went to wash the dishes
“I’m going to explore.” I said as i realized that i have only seen the spar room, the living room, the kitchen and the bathroom. Mostly the bathroom, its odd since dad died i have been having to pee urgently.
“Ok but remember that i will be in to tuck you in at 10.” she said.
“wait you said 10.30?” i said
“baby if you are having nightmares then you need to get to sleep earlier or you will be sleepy in the day and don’t say that was a one off nightmare because it obviously wasn’t.” she said.
“Fine.” i said i didn’t want to fight with her.
I went upstairs and walked down the hall when i say a room with my name on the door in cute pink writing. When i entered i saw what mum meant by not decorating the room was a nursery. It had baby pink and white walls, with teddy bares as a border. There was a large crib and changing table that both looked like they would still fit me. I giggled at the thought. Then i say some baby cloths , which were mostly pink, some diapers, which looked really stretchy i wonder if i could still……no don’t be stupid kirstie. Then i saw my favourite part of the room it was a big rocking chair with some toys around it, including some bares (that i kinda wanted to hug) and some pacifiers (which i was tempted to suck on) but there was also a beautiful guitar in the corner next to the chair.
I love playing guitar, i taught myself when i was 10 how to play and ever since then i have been writing songs. I got my own guitar once but dad slammed it over my head. I picked up the guitar and started to play. I played for what felt like minuets but must have been hours as i haired mum clapping from behind me.
“Baby that was great did you writ that?” she asked smiling and i nodded blushing as all ways. “do you think you could play something for me one day?” she asked.
“Em maybe” i said.
“Ok hun well you can have the guitar if you like.” she smiles.
“really thanks.” i smile and go to hug here but stop myself and she gives me a odd look.
“yeah now lets get you to bed.” she said helping me up.
Once i got my pjs on she came into my room.
“Hi sweetie i thought you would want this.” she said giving me my kitty and i hug it quickly and she awws then tuck me in, which even though it made me blush i kinda liked it.
“Night night sweetie love you.” she said and left.
“love you to.” i whispered once she was gone and fell a sleep.
That night i had the worst dream i have had in years. In it dad was back and he was hitting me and mum then when i went up to mum she wasn’t moving , she wasn’t breathing she was dead.
“MUMMY!” i screamed as i woke up and i know it was childish but i ran right into mums room and buried my face in her cest. I just needed to know she was there.
“Baby bay it’s ok shh shh.” she cooed just like last nigh and held me like a baby.
“M m m mu mummy don’t leave me don’t let him hurt me.” i sobbed.
“shh shh he is gone and he is never ever coming back no one will hurt you i promise baby shh.” she cooed rocking me. “Baby why don’t you sleep in here tonight there is lots of room?” she said after my sobs had went to just a sniff or to. I just nodded and cling to her, which I’m pretty sure mad her smile but i can’t be sure as my head was still buried in her chest. She lay back down still holding me and started to sing a lullaby, which surprisingly sent me right to sleep.